𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟔𝟒
After finishing the examination before bed, I’m a little tired, so Chris casts a healing spell on me.
Kyle, who has changed his clothes, also lies down on the bed where I’m lying.
It seems that the three of us will sleep together tonight.
I know when we’re going to bed because Kyle comes in after the healing is done.
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“You seem more tired than usual today. Thinking too much?”
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“That’s right. There were many things to think about.
Even though they were all things that were useless to think about.”
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Both Eliza’s situation and Kokodia’s domestic movements,
There’s nothing I can do about it.
Yet I can’t get it out of my head, and I feel heavy all the time.
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“You have to forget about Eliza.
As for Kokodia. . .Well, to some extent, we expected it.
Princess, when you asked me to be your consort, I was already saying that.”
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“What does it mean that you were telling Chris?”
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“. . .I don’t think it’s best for someone of Kokodia’s bloodline to bear a child, or something like that.
Maybe it was also because we were on the verge of going to war with Kokodia.
Those words helped me decide to become my consort.”
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“Oh, right, I said something like that.”
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That’s nostalgic. I answered Chris, who said he wouldn’t become a consort because we couldn’t have children,
That I didn’t need a consort to have children.
Not to be influenced by Kokodia, not to make my child the next king.
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“Do you still think that way?”
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“Yes, I do. That’s what they’re saying in Kokodia.
I don’t think we’ll have a good relationship with Kokodia in the future.
King Raymon might be fine, but
I don’t know how the relationship will change with his descendants.
My grandfather accepted the alliance through marriage,
Probably because the country was in such turmoil.”
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“Are you going to adopt Eddie’s children?”
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“I was thinking that way, but I think it’s fine not to adopt.
Eddie and the others are in the royal palace,
So it’s a simple matter to recognize the child as royalty if one is born.”
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I used to think that if they weren’t my children, they couldn’t become crown princes,
But now that Eddie has become a crown prince’s proxy,
We can recognize Eddie’s child as royalty as is.
I think it’s fine to have Eddie and Diana raise them,
And confirm their intentions when they finish their prince education.
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“Eddie doesn’t want to become the crown prince probably because he doesn’t want to be king.
I hope Eddie’s child will have the character to become king.”
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“I think it will be fine because it’s also Diana’s child.
If that doesn’t work out, we’ll have to think about it at that time.”
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I’m hoping that the child will take after Diana and agree, but,
They’ve only been married for a year, and it might be too early to think about this since she’s not even pregnant yet.
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“. . .I’d like to see the child of Princess and Kyle.
Would you have considered it a little if Kokodia didn’t exist?”
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“Huh?”
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“I thought the Princess didn’t want a child.”
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My own feelings. . .if Kokodia didn’t exist.
I inadvertently glance at Kyle beside me.
A child will be born between Kyle and me. Surely a lovely silver-haired child will be born.
And then. . .I’ll become a mother. . .no, that’s not right.
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“. . .Maybe I wouldn’t have given birth even if Kokodia didn’t exist.
I can think of many reasons not to give birth, but not a single reason why I’d want to.”
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“Sofia. . .”
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“I don’t know what it means to be a mother.
I don’t think it’s just Okaa-sama’s fault, but I don’t feel like I can become a mother.
. . .I think I’m scared.
I feel like I’ll become something different by giving birth.”
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Chris gently strokes my back.
Kyle grips my left hand, saying it’s okay.
When I look at my fingertips, they are trembling slightly.
This is the part of me that hasn’t fully grown up. I just can’t do what’s expected.
As a woman, I can’t accept my motherhood.
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“My bad. I was just a little curious.
I was caught up in why the Princess decided not to have a child.
If you don’t want to give birth, I think that’s fine.
I don’t want you to give birth unwillingly. Kyle thinks the same, right?”
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“Yeah. I respect what Sofia has decided.
Rather than a non-existent child,
What’s more important is that Sofia is happy and smiling.
. . .I don’t know my mother either. I’m the same as Sofia.
With me, Sofia, and Chris, the three of us are family, and that’s enough.”
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“Is it alright? Kyle could have another lover, you know.
Maybe she will give birth to a child?”
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“Princess. That’s foolish.”
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“Huh?”
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Somehow annoyed, Chris tells me, and when I look at Kyle, he’s clearly angry.
Thinking it’s rare for Kyle to be angry like this,
Chris, having finished healing, waves his hand and leaves the room.
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“I wanted to let you rest today, but I guess it’s impossible. Good night to both of you.”
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“Huh?”
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“I’ll wake you up a bit late tomorrow. Kyle, go easy, okay?”
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“. . .I’ll try as much as I can.”
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“Don’t break Princess, okay? See ya.”
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“Chris??”
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The door slams shut.
I’m scared to turn around. . .but I’m forcibly turned over,
And my lips are sealed with a kiss.
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“. . .?!”
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“Don’t you ever suggest having a lover again,
Let’s make sure you understand?”
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“I won’t. . .never again. . .”
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Despite swearing never to say it again, Kyle’s mood doesn’t improve,
And I ended up being kept awake until I couldn’t get up for a long time. . .
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