My Children Swarm the Cosmos โ€“ Chapter 4

๐‚๐ก๐ข๐ฆ๐ž๐ซ๐š๐ณ ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฃ๐ž๐œ๐ญ (4)

The fundamental drawback of a bioweapon is that itโ€™s hard to control. In a nutshell, unlike an AI or a soldier, it doesnโ€™t understand the orders of its superiors.

First of all, for a bioweapon to attack the enemy, it needs to instinctively possess aggression towards โ€˜creatures classified as different speciesโ€™ and aggression towards their structures and objects.

Thatโ€™s why, until now, Darwin Foundation has only thrown bioweapons at enemy bases where there are no allies, like a bomb.

Even bioweapons thrown like that are mostly attached with various mechanical parts of Darwin Foundation, so that they can be controlled by electronic signals to manipulate their actions.

If not for such environmental or mechanical methods, bioweapons could never be operated.

โ€œThat is, until Darwin Foundationโ€™s chimeraz project gets underway.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s a surprising story hidden in there.โ€

A wealthy individual who came to sponsor Darwin Foundation today. An employee involved in the chimeraz project is coaxing him in a closed meeting room.

โ€œItโ€™s better to use bioweapons than mercenaries when dealing with slightly important tasks. The labor cost is low, and seeing these monsters run wild would discourage anyone from daring to touch your business.โ€

โ€œBut Iโ€™m not here to sponsor a small sum. If I sponsor the amount proposed, later on. . . . . .โ€

โ€œOh, is there no return? Of course there is. Once the chimeraz project is completed, there will be a โ€˜rulerโ€™ that survives to the end.โ€

โ€œYes.โ€

โ€œWeโ€™ll give you a slightly earlier number so that you can hire that ruler first.โ€

โ€œOh my, thereโ€™s a number? It seems like there are many others who covet that power, besides me.โ€

โ€œThereโ€™s no war thanks to the UNF, but conflicts will never disappear. Moreover, now that weโ€™ve even started diplomacy with extraterrestrial races, what weapon wouldnโ€™t sell?โ€

โ€œSo that chimeraz projectโ€™s final pick. Ruler. . .?, what kind of role does that monster play on the battlefield? I heard that it has a human body.โ€

โ€œA bioweapon is a human being. In other words, it needs to be controlled by an ally.โ€

โ€œRight.โ€

โ€œBut as I said earlier, these monsters donโ€™t understand human speech. Even if they did, they wouldnโ€™t know why they should obey. They donโ€™t even know how to distinguish between allies and enemies.โ€

โ€œIf we try to make them intelligent, the structure of their brains becomes too complex. . . If we try to make them human-like, they become artificial humans because of their DNA. . .โ€

โ€œYes. Thatโ€™s why weโ€™re saying that there needs to be a โ€˜bridge of commandโ€™ between these bioweapons and humans.โ€

โ€œIs that bridge of connection those human-like monsters? The ones you call experimental subjects?โ€

โ€œThatโ€™s right. Experimental subjects 1 to 500 can all hear and speak human language, learn like humans, and communicate with humans. Although there were 400 of them, theyโ€™re all dead now, leaving only four.โ€

โ€œThat part is similar to humanoids or artificial humans.โ€

โ€œBut at the same time. . . they can control bioweapons of the same race that have received their genetic material.โ€

โ€œSame race?โ€

โ€œThey can control them if theyโ€™re of the same race, even if they look different.โ€

Those creatures live under the rule of a leader, as a single race.

โ€œSo youโ€™ve realized collective consciousness without the aid of electronic devices, and youโ€™ve even perfectly replicated the characteristics of an interspecies group.โ€

โ€œIโ€™m curious about the principle behind that.โ€

โ€œItโ€™s waves.โ€

โ€œWhat kind of waves?โ€

โ€œWaves themselves. If I were to explain it in terms of physics, itโ€™s a band of electromagnetic waves. Chimeraz can communicate with each other using waves.โ€

โ€œCan creatures do that?โ€

โ€œItโ€™s a similar principle to when different computers communicate after installing the same program.โ€

Thatโ€™s why chimeraz made up of different creatures are referred to as a single race.

โ€œCanโ€™t someone hack the waves between experimental subjects and bioweapons?โ€

โ€œTheoretically, itโ€™s impossible.โ€

โ€œWhy?โ€

The employee gives a very simple answer.

โ€œBecause the waves used by chimeraz arenโ€™t made up of a pattern of 0s and 1s.โ€

โ€œBut the waves can still be observed, right? Itโ€™s not like they have telepathic superpowers.โ€

โ€œThey can be observed, but meaningful information canโ€™t be extracted to determine whether itโ€™s the chimerazโ€™s waves, artificial waves, or natural waves.โ€

โ€œReally?โ€

โ€œEven if you miraculously manage to filter those waves, they canโ€™t be decrypted. This isnโ€™t a โ€˜languageโ€™, but a way of transmitting the collective consciousnessโ€™s โ€˜intentionโ€™, so no one can figure it out.โ€

Thatโ€™s why not even Darwin Foundation knows what the chimeraz are talking about through their waves.

โ€œItโ€™s the perfect encryption method.โ€

๐Ÿ”ธ๐Ÿ”ธ๐Ÿ”ธ๐Ÿ”ธ๐Ÿ”ธ๐Ÿ”ธ

A space with a thoroughly isolated dome structure.

A thick tube descending from the center of the high ceiling hangs down like an umbilical cord, providing organic matter.

Moving upward, a colossal bone juts out like a bony ridge on top of the winding cylindrical or conical gargantuan body.

Black thorns larger than a human being protrude from the red-brown skin layer, and red blood vessels are exposed on the skin layer, passing between the thorns. Overall, itโ€™s a spiky, lumpy shape.

The height from the bottom to the top of that gargantuan body is about 34 meters. Its width, if you were to look at it straight on, is close to 26 meters.

If humans were to see just this appearance, they would probably describe it as the head of a parasite made of organic tissue or an alien xenomorph.

A creature created by Darwin Foundation through the chimeraz project.

The mother experimental subject that birthed a total of 500 experimental subjects.

โ€˜๐˜”๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ.โ€™

I spread my arms wide and hugged my mother in her bosom. As I burrowed into her bosom like that, mother hid the thorns at the spot I touched underneath her skin layer.

โ€˜๐˜”๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ, ๐˜โ€™๐˜ฎ ๐˜š๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต 412.โ€™

I send my waves to Mom. I can send waves no matter how far away I am, but mother can only send waves at this close distance, she says.

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต.โ€™

As I send my waves first, mother also responds with waves. A warm voice flows into my head.

โ”๐˜๐จ๐ฎโ€™๐ซ๐ž. . . . . .๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐ ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐›๐š๐œ๐ค ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ง.

Momโ€™s response is different from usual. Normally, she would have ignored me or cursed at me.

โ€˜๐˜ˆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ?โ€™

โ”๐ˆโ€™๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ. . .

It hurts my heart.

She must have finally stabilized after her pregnancy ended. Sheโ€™s apologizing for how she treated her children terribly until now.

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ๐˜ข๐˜บ.โ€™

I understand.

I donโ€™t know how the other experimental subjects reacted to motherโ€™s terrible attitude, but I understand. I understand how much mother suffered and how stressed she was because of her pregnancy.

โ€˜๐˜‹๐˜ฐ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ?โ€™

โ”๐“๐ก๐ž ๐ฆ๐จ๐ฌ๐ญ ๐œ๐š๐ฉ๐š๐›๐ฅ๐ž ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐. . . ๐ˆ ๐ซ๐ž๐ฆ๐ž๐ฆ๐›๐ž๐ซ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐.

โ€˜๐˜โ€™๐˜ฎ ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ 5๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ด. ๐˜ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜โ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ, ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ.โ€™

โ”๐–๐ก๐š๐ญโ€™๐ฌ ๐ฉ๐ซ๐ž๐ฅ๐ข๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐š๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ฅ๐ž๐œ๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง?

It seems like those b*stards from the Foundation didnโ€™t provide mother with proper information.

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ด 401 ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ 500 ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜จ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ. ๐˜œ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ญ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ.โ€™

โ”. . .๐–๐ก๐š๐ญ?

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ. ๐˜ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ.โ€™

Since mother is also a creature with emotions, when we share waves, we also share emotions.

โ”. . .

I sense unease from the waves connected to mother.

No, thereโ€™s something else besides unease. Itโ€™s an intangible feeling of my throat hurting and my chest feeling heavy.

Sorrow.

Guilt.

It seems like Iโ€™m feeling both of those things.

โ€˜๐˜โ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ. ๐˜โ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ณ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ป. ๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ, ๐˜ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜‹๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ข ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ท๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜”๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ.โ€™

โ”. . . ๐‡๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐ฉ๐ž๐จ๐ฉ๐ฅ๐ž ๐Ÿ๐ซ๐จ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐…๐จ๐ฎ๐ง๐๐š๐ญ๐ข๐จ๐ง ๐ฌ๐š๐ข๐ ๐š๐ง๐ฒ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ซ๐ž๐œ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ฅ๐ฒ?

โ€˜๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆโ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต. ๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜บโ€™๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฃ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต.โ€™

Mother falls silent.

I sense something through the waves.

Resentment. . . Anger. . .

Anger?

Mother is angry. Why?

โ”๐ˆ ๐ฌ๐ž๐ž. . .

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฉ.โ€™

It must be anger towards the Foundation humans who are separating mother and me. Or anger towards this stifling reality.

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ๐˜ข๐˜บ. ๐˜๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ข ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ง๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ. ๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ ๐˜ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ณ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ป, ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜บโ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ. ๐˜โ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ซ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฃ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜บ. ๐˜ž๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด, ๐˜โ€™๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต.โ€™

โ”๐˜๐จ๐ฎโ€™๐ซ๐ž ๐œ๐š๐ฉ๐š๐›๐ฅ๐ž ๐š๐ง๐. . . ๐›๐ซ๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐š๐ง๐. . . ๐š ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐.

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฉ. ๐˜ˆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ. . .โ€™

Words I couldnโ€™t say before suddenly pop into my head.

โ€˜๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜‹๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ. ๐˜‰๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ? ๐˜ˆ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ถ๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ด๐˜ต.โ€™

โ”. . . ๐ˆ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ. ๐“๐ก๐ž ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ซ๐ž๐ง ๐ˆ ๐ ๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐›๐ข๐ซ๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐จ.

Iโ€™m not the chatty type.

I want to say anything to make mother feel better.

โ€˜๐˜Œ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ช๐˜ฑ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ช๐˜ณ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด. ๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ตโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต. ๐˜‰๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด ๐˜ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ญ. ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ค๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ด, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฑ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ด.โ€™

On the other hand, I want to be praised by mother. I want to cling to her more, in the face of motherโ€™s affectionate appearance that Iโ€™m experiencing for the first time in my life.

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ซ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ค ๐˜ด๐˜ถ๐˜ฃ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ช๐˜ณ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ช๐˜ณ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ. ๐˜๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ข ๐˜ณ๐˜ถ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ, ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ. ๐˜‰๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต ๐˜ง๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ด ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต.โ€™

At this moment,

I suddenly feel a sense of pressure from the fact that I wonโ€™t be able to meet her again until this project is complete.

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ด ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ฆ๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต, ๐˜ฃ๐˜บ ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ๐˜บโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜ด. ๐˜‰๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ต ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ธ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ 5 ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ถ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ด. ๐˜›๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ณ๐˜ข๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ง๐˜ง๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต, ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆโ€™๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฎ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜จ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ด๐˜ฑ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ค๐˜ฉ ๐˜ ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ค๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ฑ๐˜ต๐˜ถ๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ป๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ช๐˜จ๐˜ฏ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ค๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ญ๐˜ด.โ€™

In the end, the difference between me and the other experimental subjects lies in how much effort we put into what, and how efficiently.

Itโ€™s definitely not because Iโ€™m a superior species and can mutate and learn better than the other experimental subjects. Itโ€™s all my choice and the result of my effort.

I wish mother knew that. That Iโ€™ve worked this hard for our race and for mother.

โ”๐Œ๐ฒ ๐›๐ž๐ฅ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž๐ ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐. ๐‚๐š๐ง ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐ž๐ง ๐œ๐š๐ซ๐ž๐Ÿ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฌ๐š๐ฒ?

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฉ.โ€™

This is also the first time mother has initiated a conversation with me.

I want to hear anything. If itโ€™s coming from that affectionate and warm tone, I want to listen to anything.

โ”๐“๐ก๐ž ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ฌ, ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ. . .

Guilt.

An overwhelming sense of guilt washes over me from mother, as if it were crushing me.

โ”. . . ๐“๐ก๐ž ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ญ๐ก ๐ข๐ฌ, ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ก๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐ฅ๐ฅ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ก๐ž ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐จ ๐๐ข๐ž.

Itโ€™s okay.

โ€˜๐˜‰๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ง ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜จ๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜บ? ๐˜–๐˜ณ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ค๐˜ข๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜บ๐˜ด ๐˜ฃ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ณ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ต ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด?โ€™

โ”๐ˆ๐ญโ€™๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฎ๐ž ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ. . . ๐ˆ๐Ÿ ๐ข๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐Ÿ๐จ๐ซ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ž๐ž๐ญ๐ข๐ง๐ , ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ง๐ž๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ ๐ก๐š๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฌ๐ž๐ง๐ญ ๐ฎ๐ง๐š๐ฎ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ซ๐ข๐ณ๐ž๐ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ฌ. . .

โ€˜๐˜๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜ถ๐˜ด๐˜ต ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ง๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ญ๐˜ฌ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฑ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด ๐˜ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ ๐˜บ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถโ€™๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฆ๐˜น๐˜ฑ๐˜ฐ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ด๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด, ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ ๐˜ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ๐˜ต ๐˜ ๐˜ด๐˜ฉ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ญ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต ๐˜ฆ๐˜ช๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ.โ€™

I think mother is grateful to me. Thatโ€™s how it feels.

But the next thing mother said was like a confession of the truth.

โ”๐˜๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐ž๐ซ๐ž๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐œ๐ก๐ข๐ฅ๐๐ซ๐ž๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ž๐ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž ๐›๐ข๐ซ๐ญ๐ก ๐ญ๐จ. . . ๐ƒ๐ข๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ?

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ ๐˜ข ๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ.โ€™

Mother created because of the chimeraz project.

Mother who gave birth to us because of the chimeraz project.

She must not have had any say in our birth and childbirth. Thatโ€™s why mother must have had a harder time than us. She must have even resented our existence.

But itโ€™s okay.

Mother loves me, just like she loves her children.

I love Mother, just like her children love her.

Thatโ€™s enough. mother didnโ€™t genuinely hate me.

โ”๐ˆ ๐ก๐จ๐ฉ๐ž ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎโ€™๐ซ๐ž ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐ก๐ฎ๐ซ๐ญ ๐›๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฌ๐š๐ฒ๐ข๐ง๐ . . . ๐“๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ฆ๐ข๐ ๐ก๐ญ ๐›๐ž ๐ฌ๐จ๐ฆ๐ž๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐ก๐š๐ญ ๐ˆ ๐œ๐š๐ง ๐จ๐ง๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฌ๐š๐ฒ ๐ง๐จ๐ฐ. . .

โ€˜๐˜ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต. ๐˜ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏโ€™๐˜ต ๐˜จ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต ๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ฐ๐˜ณ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜บ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ.โ€™

Itโ€™s all okay. I feel trust flowing from mother towards me as I convey my sincerity like that.

โ”๐˜๐จ๐ฎ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซ ๐ข๐ฌ. . .

Hatred, disgust, anger, resentment, contempt, regret, killing intent, malice, vengeance, guilt, unease, impatience, anxiety, eagerness, this and that, all sorts of dark things seem to be pouring dark paint into my heart, more so than blood.

At that moment, unbearable things came rushing and flooding in.

โ”๐Œ๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ž๐ซย  ๐ก๐จ๐ฉ๐ž๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐งโ€™๐ญ ๐ก๐š๐ญ๐ž ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฆ๐š๐ง๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ๐จ ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐œ๐ก.

At that time, the words mother said,

Were so different from what mother had sent to my heart that I couldnโ€™t help but think it was a lie.

โ”๐†๐ž๐ญ ๐š๐ฅ๐จ๐ง๐  ๐ฐ๐ข๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐ฎ๐ฆ๐š๐ง๐ฌ.

โ€˜๐˜ž๐˜ฉ๐˜บ? ๐˜ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ถ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ด.โ€™

From the very beginning, Darwin Foundation designed us to hate all living beings that werenโ€™t our own kind.

But to get along with humans, who are especially hateful. Doesnโ€™t that go against the purpose of my birth? Even if I were to just work with humans in human society, thatโ€™s fine, but to โ€˜get alongโ€™ with humans.

There must be some profound meaning behind motherโ€™s words.

โ”. . . ๐“๐ก๐š๐ญโ€™๐ฌ ๐ญ๐ก๐ž ๐จ๐ง๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐š๐ฒ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐œ๐š๐ง ๐ฅ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž.

Those were difficult words for me to understand.

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