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As Lumina steps quietly into the small old church behind the school, she murmurs softly.
“God…Did I do something wrong? Is that why you are so mean to me?”
Lumina looked at the stained glass windows, which were lit up by the sun, and held her chest.
Tears trickled down her cheeks.
She didn’t want to shed any more tears for Stephan, but she had loved him for too long, and her heart ached.
——I can’t take it anymore.
——I want to disappear.
——I want it to end.
——I wanted to live a life where I could be loved this time, find someone who would love me, but God is mean and won’t let me.
The desire to end it is growing and growing.
“I should just run away.”
——If the loop lasts forever, I will probably start over anyway, but until then, I’m free.
Sharon said he would love her, but she couldn’t think about that now.
——Let’s run away.
As these thoughts ran through her mind, Lumina felt her mood brighten more and more.
——Yes, that’s it. I should just run away.
Lumina left the church and went back to her house.
She heard that her father was working and her mother was having a tea party today, so only the butler and the maids were in the house.
The maids were perplexed by Lumina’s unexpected return, but she looked so happy that they couldn’t say anything. They tried to help her change her clothes like they usually do, but Lumina politely said no.
Lumina goes to her room, packs her jewelry and other belongings, dresses simply, puts on her hat, grabs her bag, and leaves the house.
The chief butler was in a hurry to stop her, but Lumina smiled and said,
“I’m just going out for a short while. I’m a little tired of the queen’s education.”
The butler is silent when she is told so.
“I’m going to go to the lakeside villa to clear my mind. I’ll be back.”
“Then at least wait until I call the master.”
“Ara, it’ll be dark by then. Fufufu. I’m going.”
“Please wait!”
The butler stopped her, but Lumina didn’t care. She got into the carriage and told it to drive to the duke’s summer residence outside the city.
The carriage starts moving and Lumina opens the window to feel the breeze and exhales.
“It feels good. I’ve never felt anything like this before.”
Lumina was rocked into the carriage, knowing that the engagement would be broken off and looped again in a few months. Until then, she is free to do whatever she wants, on her own.
𝕆𝕟𝕘𝕠𝕚𝕟𝕘
𝕋𝕣𝕒𝕟𝕤𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟 ℂ𝕠𝕞𝕡𝕝𝕖𝕥𝕖𝕕
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Thanks for the new chapter!
I honestly don’t know what the reviewer is saying… I can feel very much this is a pic from her, it is easy to empathise, it’s easy to feel her pain, in all honesty the prince and her sister is irrelevant, she’s regressed often, rather than the story of her and the prince or Sharon it’s more a journey of self love and discovery about what really mattered.
She doesn’t hate her sister, doesn’t try to prevent there love blossing nor does she look towards Sharon as her backup, she genuinely has reflective thoughts about that possible future and consideration if it ends with her appreciating herself and valuing the person she has become no longer desperate for love that was never for her…
Then it is a good story… Anything else is just a bonus… My hope is that she is free to pursue the life she wants with fulfilment and happiness, she knows it takes work to maintain a relationship, hasn’t she spent several lifetimes understanding that failure after failure?
Sharon feels a bit too contrived given their age when he suggested his love on the side plan if the prince fks around, again… It’s not like he’s a century plus lady like her…
Stupid auto correct and I can’t edit..pic =pov
I’m really glad that she’s made up her mind or at least until the timed loop… Hopefully, she gets a happy ending this time
Kinda wild she’s like oh my god he doesn’t love me when she’s made it kinda clear she’s not going to try and love him, like, this iteration of him has no idea what she’s gone through or why she’s so guarded against him- Saying they developed a close friend like relationship only for her to blow up as soon as Sophie enters the picture means she’s still hung up on Stephan. The passage of time doesn’t appear to have done anything for their maturities/ experiences in this life time it feels like.