I Was Confessed to by the Person I Was Admiring – Chapter 147
Chapter 147: 7/8 — (Jeremiah POV)
The Javier festival has arrived.
The women were busy since morning, while us men were leisurely preparing while watching their busy state. I look at the clear sky and think that it takes a lot of time to get ready.
It seems like the gloomy sky until just last month was a lie.
While waiting for the women in the entrance hall, Lorraine, who looked tired at first, came out. It seems that she was the first one to start getting ready. However, it paid off as she looked lovely today.
She wore a light green dress that was reminiscent of spring and a hair accessory with flowers of the same color. However, she still seemed cold as she tightly held onto her woolen stole and coat, letting out a sigh. Combined with light makeup, she looked somewhat melancholic.
I feel something uneasy about her appearance that I can’t ignore.
——Isn’t it a bit too much? You don’t have to look so beautiful during the day…
I let out a small sigh after thinking that.
It’s a happy thing for me too when Lorraine shows her true charm. However, I’m not very happy right now. I know the reason for that, so I don’t intend to tell her not to dress up.
As I struggle with my own feelings, Lorraine notices me.
In an instant, her tired face changes into a smile.
Her golden eyes widened, and a happy voice slipped out of her mouth.
“Jeremiah! Were you already here? You should have waited inside, it’s still cold outside.”
Lorraine asked with flushed cheeks, not needing any makeup. I felt the fog in my mind disappear as I looked at her expression.
“That’s right, but it’s quieter here. And thanks to being here, I can spend a little more time with you.”
Lorraine was unusually tongue-tied and seemed to want to say something, but quickly closed her mouth. The two eyes that usually stared at me were now looking at the scenery I had been gazing at.
I was a little confused when she suddenly said that.
“Spring is coming.”
I thought I should have given a better response, but nothing else came out. Lorraine didn’t seem to notice my inner conflict and happily gazed at the well-kept garden of the Duke’s mansion in the morning.
As I looked at her profile, I still couldn’t say anything.
I didn’t want to ruin this peaceful and quiet time.
So we spent some time like that for a while.
Even though Lorraine was looking at me, she seemed to be lost in thought and enjoying herself without being too flustered.
I was just watching Lorraine in a rare relaxed state.
However, such a quiet time did not last long. The entrance hall became a little noisy, and Paula, Lucia, and the duke appeared.
I joined them and got into the carriage with Lorraine. We were going to visit nearby houses and greet the residents. Although it was customary, it would take a lot of time to visit all the houses, as many of them would be empty. I usually find it a bit troublesome, but this time Lorraine is with me.
I settled down right next to Lorraine in the carriage and told the coachman to start driving.
Inside the carriage, Lorraine looked out the window with a curious expression and suddenly said,
“Jeremiah, I’ve caused a lot of trouble for you and everyone else, but I truly think coming to the capital was a good thing.”
Surprised, I listened as she began to speak hesitantly about the thoughts she had been carrying with her until then.
“In my past life, I couldn’t do anything. I couldn’t even dream or fall in love. But, meeting Jeremiah and being able to be together like this, I can live an age that I have never experienced before. That alone is amazing, but it’s still not enough.”
She paused to take a deep breath.
“There’s something I really want. Of course, it’s not something that would inconvenience you, so please don’t worry.”
I somehow understood what Lorraine was trying to say. However, there was one thing that I couldn’t compromise on.
“…I don’t want to force my thoughts on you. But if it ever leads to you leaving because of it…”
“That won’t happen.”
Lorraine said firmly.
“I already told you. I want to keep looking at your face and your figure forever. The thing I want most is to be by your side for the rest of my life and become your family.”
With a slightly embarrassed expression, but still with a strong determination in her golden eyes, Lorraine spoke.
“I haven’t decided yet, but I want to investigate more about this world. Within the limits of what is possible, I want to achieve something, in other words, I want to have pride and feel alive.”
As she continued to speak, Lorraine’s eyes took on a shimmering, wet look, and I couldn’t help but be captivated. I love those beautiful eyes that possess such strong vitality.
“But if you’re not by my side, the colors will disappear from my life. I don’t want that. Within the limits of what is possible. I think it would be greedy to ask for more… My life with Jeremiah is more important to me…”
I couldn’t listen to her words until the end.
My body had moved ahead of my mind.