Ch 180
Klana took a bath and made an effort to recall her memories with Lisir.
Specifically, her memories of him from when they were lovers or a couple.
“Why is this happening…?”
In the midst of that, she realized something was wrong with her body.
Power entered her Left Hand regardless of her will, and a special movement began to appear.
There was no particular displeasure or Pain.
That was inevitable, because it was merely the manifestation of a consciousness deeply embedded within.
However, Klana was unaware of such inner workings-
Therefore, she quietly watched her Left Hand with Doubt and Worry.
Twitch.
Twitch.
It was a somewhat strange movement to dismiss as a simple spasm.
It seemed as if she was writhing from a specific Emotion.
“Ah.”
Eventually, Klana realized.
That it was a natural reaction from her subconscious, her True Nature.
It was as if her body remembered.
For example.
Before losing her memories, she would show that kind of reaction whenever she thought of ‘Lover Lisir’.
As she realized that fact, her Curiosity grew even more.
What on earth could it be?
Just thinking of a Man she was in a Lover Relationship with was making her writhe this much.
What could be the Reason for that?
Now that her Murderous Intent had disappeared for some Reason, and she had even lost her memories of murder and Combat-
Klana was just an ordinary Woman.
‘Ah! Is my subconscious so full of Shame that it’s trying to kill itself!’
She could not possibly reach such an extraordinary and overbearing thought.
In the end.
She reached an extremely ordinary conclusion with extremely ordinary thinking.
“Is she being shy…?”
What other Reason could there be for her to writhe so violently when thinking about her Relationship with her Lover（?）.
“Come to think of it-…”
Even within her jumbled memories, Klana recalled those memories that surfaced relatively clearly.
Most recently.
Specifically, those memories that had given Klana the greatest Excitement.
In those memories, she was telling Lisir.
That she would let him touch her chest.
Looking back on it now, that Attitude was somewhat peculiar.
It was a situation where she was allowing her Lover to touch her body, but her emotional state was too dry.
It was as if she was doing him a favor, like giving candy to a child who didn’t feel like Reason at all.
Of course, that was absurd.
“Lisir…”
A shy Smile appeared on the Woman’s lips as she spoke the Man’s name.
Noble and handsome appearance.
An unpretentious Personality that was unlike a Noble.
What Woman could completely exclude rational Emotions when dealing with such a Man?
What Woman could offer her body to such a Man as if she were handing over an Item?
That was something only those who lived antisocial lives could do.
‘Could it be that I… was that kind of person?’
On one hand, that Anxiety did arise━ but it didn’t have much persuasiveness.
‘No. That can’t be. If that were the case, there’s no way that person would have treated me so normally.’
Lisir’s Attitude towards Herself was too natural to be that of someone dealing with an Outlaw.
It was something that someone who frequently encountered Outlaws such as murderers, robbers, and Mercenary in the underworld might be able to do-
But at least Lisir didn’t seem like someone close to that underworld.
“Hmm…”
As such.
Klana proceeded with her thinking in the direction she thought was right, cutting off one branch at a time.
Eventually, Klana arrived at one question and answer.
Question.
She was a Woman who could indifferently offer her body to Lisir.
Choose the Reason why that was possible.
1. Because she is an antisocial and inhuman Personality who does not consciously feel Reason for him at all, and does not feel any Value in the characteristics of the female body.
2. Because she is clumsy at expressing her True Feelings to him.
Klana naturally chose the second Choices.
Rather than an openly Crazy Woman-
A Woman with a bothersome Personality was at least more realistic.
‘If I pretend to be indifferent and show no Interest, I thought the other person would take the initiative to approach me.’
Klana went and stood in front of the Mirror in the bathroom.
“…”
A Chuckle burst from her lips as She stared blankly at her reflection in the Mirror.
“I was a shy person, I see.”
Huh?
Klana looked down at her body.
It was that again.
Her body was subconsciously writhing.
At this point, it was almost like a fit, and it felt more like Murderous Intent than Shame.
Of course, it would only be a Misconception.
Murderous Intent, you say.
It was an Emotion that had no connection whatsoever with a ‘normal’ Woman like Herself.
So.
This is definitely Shame.
She is definitely being shy right now.
She is definitely a bothersome Woman who cannot be honest when dealing with her ‘Lover’.
A satisfied Smile spread across Klana’s Expression as she took a step closer to her own identity（?）.
“Tsk, tsk.”
Soon, playfulness flickered in that Smile.
Klana looked at Herself in the Mirror and made an Expression as if she was pathetic.
‘What are you doing? To such a wonderful and good Man.’
She doesn’t know The Man well.
Of course. It’s only natural since all they’ve done is spend a short time together after she lost her memories.
Even so.
She could tell.
The Man would not be someone who treats others carelessly.
Someone who responds sincerely when shown sincerity-
He would be the possessor of such a truthful Personality.
That appearance.
That Atmosphere.
That Personality.
He could be said to be an Ideal Man that ordinary women can only obtain in their dreams.
But.
She had the good fortune to become Lovers with such a Man, and this is all she can do?
‘I’ll let you touch my chest…’
Klana shook her head.
She thought.
That she was hopeless.
That she before losing her memories was an incorrigible idiot.
Therefore-
“Maybe, this might be an Opportunity.”
If she takes action-
The best time would be before she regains her memories.
Wasteful Stubbornness. Spoiling. Nerve War.
These are things that inevitably exist in a typical Relationship between a Man and a Woman.
However.
A typical Relationship between a Man and a Woman is also a Relationship that can break at any time without being strange.
Klana didn’t want to lose a good Man like Lisir because of such trivial things.
“Alright.”
Klana, who had solidified her decision, left the bathroom.
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“Lisir? What are you doing?”
That was the scene that first caught Klana’s eyes as she left the bathroom and entered the room.
Lisir.
He was preparing a place to sleep on the sofa.
While leaving behind the large bed that could accommodate two people.
“As you can see, I am preparing to sleep.”
“How kind. You’re preparing my sleeping place for me?”
“…”
Lisir looked at Klana in surprise.
“Huh? Why?”
“Ah. It’s nothing. Don’t worry about it.”
“Hey. How can you make me curious and then do that.”
Klana approached Lisir and tapped his arm.
“Don’t do that and tell me. You also want me to regain my memories, right?”
“Um… If I say what does that have to do with it, would I be too Nunchi?”
“What I lost were memories of Daily Life. So, wouldn’t this kind of Daily Life Conversation help me recall my memories?”
“…”
Lisir looked at Klana in surprise once again.
“Geez. Why again this time?”
“I was surprised because it was a very rational tone for Klana.”
“What did you say?”
Klana Chuckled and playfully glared at him.
“It sounds like you’re saying that I’m not a rational person normally?”
“…Well.”
“Excuse me?”
“I don’t know if I should say you’re not rational, or if the problem is that you’re too rational…”
“…”
Klana recalled once again at Lisir’s meaningful Attitude.
What kind of person her original Self was.
‘A Woman who is not honest and bothersome… In situations where the other person is caring for her, she would have been pointlessly irritable.’
Klana continued the Conversation while being mindful of that fact.
“Lisir.”
“Please speak.”
“In situations like this normally, how would I have acted?”
“How would you have acted?”
“I mean, would I have said thank you for caring about me, or would I have expressed it separately?”
“…”
Lisir thought for a moment and then burst out laughing, saying it was funny.
Klana shook her head.
“Yeah. I knew it. I must have been a Woman who was really difficult and tiring to hear a thank you from. Isn’t that right?”
“I don’t know about difficult and tiring… But it’s true that you weren’t someone who easily said thank you.”
“Isn’t it funny?”
“Klana?”
She came closer to Lisir.
The way she leaned forward with her hands behind her back had a secret playfulness, as if she was gossiping about someone.
“What’s so difficult about saying thank you once. As if she’s so great. Isn’t that right?”
A person who has lost their memories is gossiping about their Self before losing their memories.
Lisir had naturally never been in this Situation before, and didn’t know how to handle it.
In that regard, Klana’s playful Smile was a great help.
It couldn’t be that she really hated her Self before losing her memories.
Lisir replied with a lighthearted attitude, like Klana’s playful Smile.
“Actually, you are a very great person.”
“Excuse me?”
“Even if you take the entire World, there probably aren’t many people as great as Klana.”
How many Swordsman are there in this World who can treat Sword Masters as inferiors?
Klana was definitely one of those very few people.
“…”
Klana felt Satisfaction first and foremost at Lisir’s actions.
She realized that the Respect he was showing was not just a formality, but sincere.
However, that Satisfaction was only temporary.
“Haa.”
Klana sighed, saying she couldn’t take it.
“That’s the problem.”
“Excuse me?”
“It’s because you spoil me so much that I can’t come to my senses.”
“Sane…”
Lisir, who thought of a Murderer, laughed with amusement, making a silly ‘Hehe’ sound.
“Klana and sane. To connect those two, it seems like it would take more than just not spoiling you.”
“…Unexpectedly, you also know how to say things sharply?”
He didn’t expect such a sarcastic answer to come back from Lisir, who was always gentle and polite.
Klana looked at Lisir, saying it was unexpected.
The Interest that her Eyes held deepened even more.
“Ah, is that so? Was I a little sharp? I apologize if you were offended.”
“Ugh! Why are you apologizing again━ It was really good until you apologized!”
“Hahaha, then I guess I should say I’m sorry for being sorry.”
Lisir’s work was finished while they were talking.
By placing the pillow he had brought from the bed at the head of the sofa, another sleeping place was completed, excluding the bed.
Klana naturally laid down on it.
In that way, she looked up at Lisir and spoke.
“…”
Lisir felt quite a bit of freshness in that composition.
A Murderer who would look down on the other person with her unique aloof Gaze even when facing death.
She was looking up at others.
And with such a playful Gaze.
Lisir suddenly began to Worry.
‘Klana, this person. If she regains her memories━ will she be okay?’
Without knowing that something big might have already happened long before he was worried.
At that time, Klana said.
“Is it always like this normally?”
“What are you referring to?”
“The way you━ spoke as if you were pinching me just now. I was wondering if you normally spoke sharply like that when I acted unruly.”
“I want to ask the Intention of the question at this point━ but I’ll just say yes for now. Actually. There’s no such thing as unruly or sharp. Klana and I weren’t in a Relationship where we observed formalities and engaged in Conversation.”
“Hmm…”
Klana was quite tall for a Woman.
If she lay down in the middle of the sofa, her long legs would hang down from under the sofa.
Klana was lost in thought, dangling those legs.
“Then this is it.”
“Yes?”
“Even though you’re behaving so properly, I’m still in this state?”
“…Well, Klana isn’t someone who would change because of me alone. Maybe, even if everyone in the World behaved properly, wouldn’t Klana be as steadfast as a pine tree?”
“Aren’t you talking too nicely in the midst of all this?”
“Ah. I meant that you would be someone who is as steadfastly hopeless as a pine tree.”
“Ah!”
Giggling.
Klana burst out laughing, wondering what was so funny.
“…”
Lisir reflexively closed his eyes tightly.
It was because of the Guilt that he shouldn’t imprint Klana’s innocent appearance on his cornea.
“What is this. It’s so different from what I thought?”
“Is that so?”
“Yes. I thought you were just a kind and pitiful Man who spoils a bad Woman.”
“So you found out that I’m not mean and pitiful?”
“Hmm. I’ll just say that I was impressed with myself rather than that.”
“In what aspect are you speaking?”
“In the aspect that I can’t come to my senses even though there’s a Man like you.”
Heave-ho.
Klana got up from the sofa.
“Anyway. I have something to say from now on, so you can’t be surprised when you hear it?”
“…By any chance, did you kill someone without me knowing? Or make them half disabled━”
“Hahahaha! You’re joking━”
“…”
I’m not joking.
While Lisir muttered in a subdued Voice, Klana looked at Lisir and said in a serious tone.
“Thank you.”
“H-h-h-h-huh…!”
“Geez, I told you not to be surprised-… No. But aren’t you too surprised?”
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to.”
“I’m the one who’s sorry. Geez. What kind of person was I normally that you’re so surprised by a single word of thank you.”
“…How about saying that you were a ruthless Hunter who enjoyed slaughter?”
“Can I interpret that as saying that I was a pretty Crazy Woman?”
“…Surprisingly, that’s an accurate interpretation.”
“What is that.”
Giggling.
While Klana burst out laughing innocently once again-
Lisir says a Doubt that belatedly came to mind.
“By the way, what are you suddenly thankful for?”
“What else could it be.”
Pat, pat.
Klana said, patting the blanket-covered sofa.
“I’m thankful that you prepared my sleeping place like this.”
“It’s not Klana’s though?”
“Yes?”
“Klana should sleep over there.”
Lisir pointed to the wide bed.
“Hey~ Even if I’m a Crazy Woman, how can I kick the Master of the room out to the sofa and take over the bed?”
“…Your Standard for Crazy Woman is very low?”
“Is that so? Well, then what should I do━ Should I go out and beat people up or something?”
Klana playfully swung her fist.
“…Your Standard for Crazy Woman is very, very low?”
“Gee! What do you think of me normally?”
Lisir looked into the distance.
“Anyway! I can’t do such outrageous things!”
Pat, pat!
Klana declared, forcefully hitting the blanket-covered sofa.
“I’m going to sleep here today, so know that!”
“…”
“Ah!”
Klana suddenly changed her Expression at that time.
“Lisir! Just now, wasn’t I like I was before I lost my memories!?”
“Hmm… Not at all?”
“Really? Oh my gosh. I still have a long way to go here…? What on earth am I…”
She muttered and tried to lie down on the sofa again.
“Klana. Don’t do this, please go to that bed. I think that would make me feel better.”
“I’m really okay with it…”
But!
Klana shouted that and jumped up.
“If I strongly refuse here and insist on my Opinion, that would be too much like me, right?”
“I don’t know exactly what you mean by Klana-like there, but let’s just go with that for now.”
But!
Klana shouted that and lay down again.
“If the Reason for being Stubborn is to be considerate of Lisir━ wouldn’t that be unlike me?”
Therefore!
Klana shouted that and got up again.
“Let’s do this.”
Klana looked at the bed.
“How about both of us sleeping in the bed?”
“Unfortunately, there’s only one bed in my room.”
“I know?”
“Unfortunately, there’s only one bed in my room.”
“I said I know?”
It was at that time that Lisir was restless at Klana’s offensive（?）.
-You Lewd organic Woman!!! You’re finally revealing your True Nature!!!
“Kyaa!?”
A roar suddenly heard from somewhere.
Klana was startled and clung to Lisir’s body.
-You lustful bitch! You’re taking advantage of the Opportunity to cling to Master again so subtly!!! You’re not even surprised at all!
“Master…?”
Klana looked back and forth between Dangaleon and Lisir.
“Ah. Klana. It’s okay. You don’t have to be surprised. That guy is Dangaleon━ something like a Spirit.”
-Something like a Spirit!?! Master! I will burn this insufficient body even more passionately!!! So please…!!!
“And, he’s my Friend. Don’t Worry, he won’t harm us.”
-Friend…!!! Kuaaaak!!! What an extreme of gratitude!!! That’s right!!! Master, I, Dangaleon! Unlike those beasts who are blinded by Lust like that organic Woman and entrust themselves to Instinct━ I am a companion who can truly understand and care for Master!!! So, Master!!! Please get away from that Woman! You must escape from that Demon Beast who is constantly trying to covet Master!
Dangaleon, who was passionately spewing out words while burning his body （Truth）.
Klana, who still had a Confusing look, looked at Dangaleon and said.
“…Something like a Spirit?”
-Got a problem with that!? Of course you do!!! You organic Woman! Show your True Nature!
“…Amazing.”
-Of course! Amaz-… What!? What did you just-
“So a Spirit can be so loyal to one person like that?”
-…
Twitching.
The fireball contained a strange tremor.
“And to talk like a person like that… It’s like a real loyal subject.”
-A real loyal subject…!
It was said that there is no greater praise than praise spoken from the mouth of the enemy（?）.
Dangaleon looked at Klana for a while and then said.
-Master! It’s a joyous occasion!!! That barbaric organic Woman seems to have finally awakened Intellect!!!
“…”
As such, Dangaleon, who was in a very good mood, made a fuss for a while and then obediently retreated.
-A true loyal subject does not step out of the Shadow!!! Master! I, Dangaleon, will retreat now! Please call me anytime if you need my help!!!
Was it because his Presence was huge in a different sense?
The Silence that came to the place after Dangaleon disappeared created a strangely awkward Atmosphere.
Klana, who had been closely attached to Lisir, carefully moved away from him.
“That━”
She carefully started the story after a moment of Hesitation.
“I’m asking just in case, but I wasn’t like this normally, right?”
“Yes.”
It was a firm and immediate answer.
Klana smiled bitterly at that reaction.
“Actually, I probably wanted to be like that.”
“Yes?”
“In her True Feelings, she probably wanted to be like that, but because of her clumsy and edgy Personality━ she went astray for no Reason.”
Klana grabbed Lisir’s hands and said.
“Now. It was a short Conversation, but I talked to you and I’m convinced.”
“Wh-wh-wh-what are you talking about?”
Lisir was experiencing extreme inner Confusion.
This.
Is it okay to listen any further here?
Shouldn’t I knock her out now for the sake of ‘Klana’?
“I. I think it probably has to be you. So━ please remember what I just said. No matter how I act. No matter how I hurt you like that. Deep down, I regret that and I’m doing Self-reproach.”
After that.
Klana hesitated with her hands behind her back and took a step back.
In that way, she went back to the sofa and lay down there, completely covering Herself with a blanket.
“Good night.”
A shy Voice was heard from inside the blanket.
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The next morning.
Lisir, who had woken up, checked on Klana’s condition before his morning Training.
“…”
She was still lying on the sofa, sleeping.
Clearly, that’s what it looked like she was doing.
“Klana? Are you awake?”
Her body trembled slightly.
Soon.
Klana slowly got up from her seat.
“…”
“Klana?”
Her Eyes, looking at the air, were shaking relentlessly.
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