...

My Inner Samurai vs. My Real-Life Chicken Heart: Why My Brain Thinks I’m Bruce Lee, But My Body Screams “Run!”

INDEX –

Ever get that feeling? You know, the one where some jerk cuts you off in traffic, and suddenly, you’re picturing yourself transforming into a black-belt badass, delivering a roundhouse kick to their ego (and maybe their side mirror)?

Yeah, that’s my brain on a daily basis. A non-stop highlight reel of me schooling bullies, silencing haters, and generally being the most awesome version of myself.

Problem is, my actual body? It’s got a different script in mind. One where “fight” is permanently replaced with “fawn” or “freeze.” Let’s just say, my inner monologue and my outer actions are on very different wavelengths.

The Daydream: Where I’m Basically a Ninja Warrior

Here’s how these mental showdowns usually play out:

  • Scenario: Some keyboard warrior leaves a nasty comment on my latest blog post.
  • My Internal Reaction: “Oh, it’s ON! Time to unleash the fury of a thousand suns (or at least a really cutting comeback).” My inner samurai unsheathes his metaphorical katana, ready to carve this troll a new one.
  • What I actually do: Stare at the comment, re-read it a dozen times, then close the tab and go eat a biscuit. Maybe two.

See the disconnect? My brain is all about that confrontation life, but my real-life self would rather diffuse a situation with a plate of custard creams than a well-placed verbal jab.

And it’s not just online. This mental dissonance extends to real-world encounters too:

  • Scenario: Someone shoves past me in the queue at the supermarket.
  • Inner Me: “Excuse me?! Do you even LIFT, bro? I’ve been training for this moment my whole life! (By training, I mean mentally preparing while binge-watching Cobra Kai).”
  • Actual Me: Mumble “no worries” and shuffle awkwardly away, probably tripping over my own feet in the process.

It’s like my brain is stuck in some action movie montage, while my body’s busy starring in a low-budget rom-com where the biggest conflict is choosing between tea flavours.

Why The Disconnect? Decoding My Inner Chicken

So, what’s the deal with this whole fantasy-vs-reality situation? Why am I a mental warrior but a physical worrier?

Here are a few theories I’ve cooked up:

  • The Power of Imagination: Let’s be real, it’s way easier to be brave and confrontational when the stakes are imaginary. No real consequences, no risk of getting punched in the face (or, worse, getting roasted in the comments section). It’s like playing a video game on easy mode – you can be as reckless as you want with zero real-world repercussions.
  • Social Conditioning: Look, we live in a world where being “nice” and “non-confrontational” is often praised (especially for us Brits). Maybe years of being told to “play nicely” and “don’t make a fuss” have hardwired me to default to politeness, even when it’s at the expense of my own inner badass.
  • Fear of Looking Like a Wazzock: This one’s a biggie. Deep down, I think I’m terrified of actually confronting someone and it blowing up in my face. What if my witty comeback falls flat? What if I come across as aggressive or, worse, just plain weird? The fear of social awkwardness is a powerful thing, my friends.

Embracing the Inner Wimp: Maybe Bravery Isn’t Always a Bar Fight

So, does this mean I’m doomed to a life of silent resentment and imaginary victories?

Not necessarily. Maybe it’s about redefining what “brave” looks like.

Instead of always aiming for the epic showdown, maybe true courage lies in:

  • Choosing Your Battles: Not every injustice requires a full-scale intervention. Sometimes, walking away IS the braver option, especially if it means protecting your own peace of mind.
  • Speaking Up in Your Own Way: Just because I’m not about to challenge anyone to a duel doesn’t mean I can’t make my voice heard. Maybe it’s through my writing, maybe it’s through a calm but firm conversation, or maybe it’s just by refusing to engage in toxic behaviour.
  • Accepting That It’s Okay to Be a Work in Progress: Look, I’m not gonna lie, a part of me still fantasizes about being that quick-witted, take-no-prisoners kind of guy. But I’m also learning to embrace the awkward, conflict-averse parts of myself. After all, they’re part of what makes me, me.

Besides, who needs physical confrontations when you can channel all that pent-up energy into crafting the perfect sarcastic tweet? Now that’s a battle I can get behind.

Translator’s Blog

Blog

Advanced Chapters

✨KOFI-PATREON

🛖HOME

𝐀𝐖𝐄𝐁𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐍𝐔 𝐃𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐘

💎ᴠɪᴘ – 𝙀𝙭𝙘𝙡𝙪𝙨𝙞𝙫𝙚 (𝙋𝙧𝙞𝙫𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙏𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙨𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨) Free Ch1-100 (Password – AWEBSTORIES-FREE100CH)


Comments

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

You cannot copy content of this page