Chapter 33: Snow melting
“As the buttercups begin to bloom in the garden, the temperature gradually starts to rise, and eventually the snow melts. As she thinks that the long winter is coming to an end, she feels uplifted.
“Liddellina, shall we have tea time?”
Today, Friedrich looks different from usual and has a worried expression on his face.
Is something wrong? Is he remembering something from his past?
Suddenly, Liddellina’s heart made a nasty sound.
She is afraid of going back to her past. She doesn’t want to lose the warm life she has now.
But what about him? she can’t just wish for her own happiness. She reminds herself of that.
As the maid prepares the tea and leaves, he opens his mouth with a somewhat nervous expression.
“Liddellina. I want to try searching for my past.”
It doesn’t seem like his memory has returned.
But if he does remember, will it turn into another pen talk? And will Liddellina have to move back to the other mansion again? The future of the land they planned together in various ways…
But for him, not knowing the past must be troubling. If that’s the case, Liddellina can’t stop him.
“Is that so?”
Liddellina suppresses her emotions and replies calmly.
“That’s why I want Liddellina to help me.”
She was surprised.
“I want you to help me search for my past together.”
“But isn’t that a very private issue? Won’t it be okay if I intrude?”
Friedrich looks surprised with wide eyes.
“What are you talking about? Aren’t we married?”
Maybe that’s what he thinks now. But…
“I had almost no communication with Husband before, but if it were “my previous Husband”, he would definitely dislike it. So I think it’s better to stop.”
Liddellina said firmly. She doesn’t want to take advantage on him, who doesn’t have memories.
“Liddellina, I’m still me, both before and now. Was the me from before that scary?”
In addition to various rumors, he had a dignified but cold appearance, so he was scary. Above all, the air around him at that time was always tense.
“Yes, a little bit.”
She answered modestly.
“Well, I’ll just write “him” a note and tell him he asked for your help.”
“No, there’s no need for you to go that far.”
“Well, can you help me then?”
There’s a sound that seems to be begging in the sincerity. He’s relying on her.
“…If it’s okay with you, I will.”
That’s all she can say.
“So, I asked the oldest servant here, and apparently I was in a tower outside of this castle, not in this castle, when I was a child.”
This castle, surrounded by castle walls, was originally like a fortress, so there is a high tower like a lookout tower.
“It’s closed now, right?”
Now that she thinks about it, she saw the light on that tower at night when she came here. Was that a dream?
“It was closed after “he” became lord.”
“Does the servant not know about Husband’s past?”
If he knows so much, it would be easier to ask him.
“Unfortunately, he is a lower-ranked servant, so he doesn’t seem to know the details. When I inherited the household at the age of 18, my parents had passed away, and it seems that I dismissed the old servants and hired new senior servants like Howard.”
He had cleaned out the servants of the past.
“Based on what I heard, isn’t it better not to force memories?”
She has a bad feeling.
“But I want to know why I made such a terrible marriage contract with you. Liddellina has no fault. I want to apologize to you properly after knowing my past.”
Honestly, apologizing or anything else doesn’t matter. The servants here are kind, and as Liddellina, she hasn’t suffered any disadvantages. On the contrary, if she had stayed in her parents’ house, she would have been sold to another place.
But when she looks into his sincere eyes, she can’t push him away.
“Does sealing the tower mean sealing the past? And does the fact that Husband currently doesn’t have memories of the past mean that it would be painful to remember?
I want a husband who can talk about various things like now. If we go back to the relationship we had before, I will feel lonely.”
Liddellina honestly expressed her feelings.
“At least you are accepting me now. It’s nice to be able to say that and to be able to be told that. I’m not forcing you. But I’m going to try to find my past. And after everything is settled, including apologizing, I want to cancel the marriage contract.”
“What do you mean?”
Is he saying he wants to divorce?
“Well, I want to be a normal couple with you.”
“A normal couple?”
“Yes. It would be good if we had children as heirs.”
She would have been confused by this proposal a little while ago, but now she is happy that he is saying it. But she’s scared of what will happen if he remembers his past and suddenly changes. Liddellina’s heart is violently shaken.
“If you’re with me, I feel like I can stay as I am now.”
It’s also scary to think that he will search for his past alone and remember it in a place where Liddellina doesn’t know, and change suddenly at that moment.
“Okay. I’ll help you.”
Liddellina has decided to cooperate.